People would always tell me things happen for a reason, and half of me would believe it and the other half of me had a heavy heart.
I’ve shared my story many times, mainly to raise awareness for those that couldn’t speak up for themselves or didn’t have the confidence to do so, but, also because of the way I was and still am treated throughout my recovery.
I’m still going through the hurdles that having a brain injury can throw at you and to be completely honest I will always have good and bad days. I’ve come to accept that and understand that my body has been through a lot and I will always keep pushing to get to where I want to be. I’m ok with knowing that I’m not and will never be fully healed but… look how far I’ve come in 5 years?!
If someone was to tell me last year I’d be where I am now I wouldn’t have believed them. Better yet if I look back over the last 5 years I would never have believed my life could have dramatically changed so much . This is the aspect I still find so painful & hard to accept.
I always believed that my ‘everything happens for a reason’ moment was the amazing, life long friends I made throughout my recovery, that I have raised awareness for other TBI/ABI survivors and that I also helped give back to the charities that saved my life and to whom I am forever grateful, they gave me back something that completely broke me as a person inside and out. I know that sounds odd saying I’m grateful for a life changing injury, a hard and painful journey and one that I would never wish upon anyone. However, I don’t think my life would be as meaningful as it is now if I hadn’t been through the fight to get to where I am now.
Each year I’ve dreaded the date of my anniversary, the reminder of something that took away the old me. Some years were harder than others however, this year something so precious has made me see just how incredible my body has been throughout my whole 32years of life.
I’m very open about my story purely because I didn’t want anyone else to go through what I did but if you know me well certain parts of my life are very private and when it comes to this little miracle I’m beyond proud that I had my little bubble and you’re in it!
My little miracle came earlier than expected and it’s been the best gift I could have wished for.
At least now I can say everything really does happen for a reason
Ezekiel Thomas William James – You are mummy’s’ dream boy.